Wow again. What a day. Love, anger, pain, anger, fear, more love.

Now the hard part, living without her. For me, I didn't see her often....rarely in recent years b/c of her addiction....so I won't physically miss her (make sense???) as much as her dear sisters, mother, and beautiful boys. Her exhusband, who the family always really liked was there, brought the entire room to tears and in front of everyone my ex-uncle reconciled with him. Right there. Love.

I thank God for that, for her boys. Billy and Josh carried their mother to her grave. The memory is one I will not soon forget. Heartwrenching.

Bill I believe feels welcomed back. He is going to bring the boys to our family gatherings, we don't want to lose them (our BIG gatherings....where you find 3 or 4 generations together 2 or 3 times a year. It is awesome. I love my family.)

Well, being emotionally drained I did not prepare for CCD tomorrow. Instead I sat here with my grandmother again talking about the past, people who aren't with us. Really, her people.

In the morning I will speak to about 80 people. No biggie (lol). After, intro to Confirmation class to the lucky students of mine this year...6.

Guess I will be seeing 6am Sunday morning! What will the theme be for next week....umm...prioritize?